seriously..damn tired life

woo...im dieing of sleep..lost of sleep..amnesia..haf alot to think..and yes..although part of it, i was thinking of my financial capabilities..too tired to jus go out and work..haf to kope wif my studies...bcos i jus didn listen to those tutorials and stuffs..haf to catch up everything wif my own capabilities..yays..irritating click i haf at poly..they all haf one thing in mind oni..GAMes games and games..and they didn even noe wad is reap wad u sow..how on earth are they going to survive in the industry nxt tyme? i shant tok muchie bout it..realli irritating stuffs tt will makes my blood boils..yays..there's 3 or 4 person serious bout studying..and yays they knew wad is study is study, play is play and enjoy is enjoy..precisely..and i think im whinning slihgtly too muchie..

oh yays..and ytd i went back to regent band de exchange..it was interesting wif the KL band..i noe they haf quite alot of fun..but we alumni were tired after one whole day of playing..yays playing instrument, playing games and of course our alumni's rapport.. nevertheless it is the place..where my fullest potential is shown..the place where i grew to lead..the place where i grew to learn and the place where i grew to excel..of course..singapore poly.. will be my nxt target to haf fun in..but i cant feel anything at all..-.-

and i once said..life is too short to be unhappy..well it maybe true..but is jus tt whether is there anyone willing to live it thru wif u..how u gonna live wif it..single wif bunch of grea frenx?? haf a girlfriend tt understand u?? i haf not realli make my choice..but i knew wad i wan actually..jus couldn't find it..lets jus wait..is aint tt simple..tt will be my best christmas gift!!

busy busy...

oh yays..these few days was living in a world of rushing time..haha..notice alot of things..I have not muchie time to waste..living every mins of my life rushing thru things
haha..so long peep!!

ops...

haha..my blog accidentally got leaked out...bcos i let felicia use my lappy..unfortunatelly..human curiosity almost are inevitably..no choice but well..they will somehow forgets my blog..someway i guess..hehes..rite now..i cant belief someone mistaken my nick as im scolding him..gosh..hes sucha petty guy..-.- nick is ...wad do u think is the name?? lmi isnt it?? full name somemore..then tt idiot go say im scolding him-.- ..i shant name tt person..is quite clear..as i believe most of u all here wont know him either..haha..


ya..nowadays i have been studying and studying for my MST..im in a need to get very good grades..so sry everyone..joseph will be putting himself under a grea8 deal of stress..if he manages to pull thru then really shld thx to u all=] if not..i think u all better take more photos of him to sell nxt tyme=x haha..oh well my peach tea is gone!! who steal it?? a guy lars..haha!! if the old one nvr goes..new one will nvr comes..haha..not for me though..who's the new one?? mayb i haf an idea..mayb i dun haf..or mayb..i shld comes out wif a "imaginary" girlfrenx!! haha..


oh yays..ops tml meeting huii at around 1+?? and im still o9 now?? gosh going to get scolded if he saw me being late tml=x haha!! alrite=] time to go to sleep..

JOSEPH WILL BE BACK THIS CHRISTMAS!!

mind in a blank..

hahas..sry peeps on not updating..but well no one noes this blog as well..so too bad..haha can't blame lars..my life during this period was so blank until tt i can even stare into my laptop and not knowing wad to do..LOLS..oh well nowadays..i haf been playing pool, study, sleeping and eating..ya i noe is boring..but no choice..my GPA this semester mus be 3.8!! so that final year i jus need to score a 3.5 to maintain the min grades to get into local U..oh yays..can some ppl tells me to sparks my life up?? LOLS oh well i will try to enter more posts frm now on!! thanks everyone for ur support!! =]

smt jus probes me...

starry starry nite..

hahas..oh well this mid autumn fest wasn't as lively as the others..even though my house here got kids, and i spent a little of my time wif my little cousin..oh well shes jus so cute..haha..same bdae as me..but younger then me by 15years old..hahas..oh did i tell ya tt everytime i sleep, she will be sharing one bed wif me..haha she likes me!! dun think so muchie eh..jus tt i always entertain her..she can almost disturb me until 3am then i haf to tempt her to sleep..babies are jus so hyper..LOLS!! oh yay..started school..gosh though my frenx and i are getting better..but the lecturer aint..there's one particular stupid lecturer...keep whacking the marker on the whiteboard and the sound is really very very irritating..i was so fed up..i stand up walk away from class and go down foodcourt and eat..1hour++ later then i go back..haha of course the teacher asked where i go..guess wad i told him?? i say i was stuck inside the lift..-.- crap lars..haha no lar..jus nice tt when i took the lift, the life got stuck halfway for 5mins..im not scare though..cause the lift got CHIO BU INSIDE!! wakaka..kinda tok wif her..oni me and her yup..LOLs her name is call jun ling..if i rmb tt correctly..haha she was from chemical life science..haha haf a grea8 tok...then after 5mins..the lift got restarted and out we go..LOLs..gah!! haha..im waiting to find a job..i need money badly..oh well cause i haf to pay bills..>< phone bills,internet bills,my transport,my 3meals a day and of course entertainment fees...SOMEBODY HELPED ME!! =x haha..mayb i becum a entertainer on street and get some quick bucks..LOLS~~!! weeee...sry for tt muchie craps..anyway cya ppl!! i may make this blog public soon..LOLs...but super lazy to edit a blog..especially those stupid programming..-.-

seasons of emo...=]

hahas..yays peeps im back..oh i forgot to say..dor wont be in my life anymore!! as in ya lar..i forgets to exhale it into air in the previous few posts..=x haha...well now i got so many flowers to choose from..haha..ya peeps..it means the flower..haha u all noe wad i mean rite..lets see...seasons of emo..yup tt's it..is going to end soon..now ppl are patching up..after the last 3 or 4 months of breaking..haha..well as my frenx around me is doing now..i was observing all along..i guess..a normal couple if happens to quarrel BIG BIG TIME..will takes bout 2-3 months to tok wif each other yet again..and the extra one months will be there for them to zip up all the tears they broken..haha interesting isit?? im expecting more and more ppl patching up..tt excluding me..cause I WILL BE IN DEEP DEEP PAIN IF i go back to dor lar...LOLs she will pull me into my son again..LOLs u all noe who is tt i guess..i am joseph..my son is j....of course why not?? hahas..let me stead it clearly..i am not a christian..but my thinking seems to be linked to christian..but all is purely came thru my mind and i unknowingly speak it to my frenx and they told me is like word from word from the bible..i wonder how on earth i think of tt..


ok couple of tips here for those who broke up and cant be frenx anymore..jus to warn u all..at the time u broke up after a quarrel..there's a reasons unseen at tt time..when once u broke up, if u tried to be frenx..first, u mus know the reason tt u break up for..of course if its something stupid, patch up why not? if the reason is unbearable...i suggest u all haf a little coffee and to see wad extent can it be pulled over..lyk mayb i dun like u saying bad bout my religion..so nxt tyme when ya were going to say it, pls away from me..smt lyk tt ppl get wad i meant?? if really still cant, i will jus advise u...when u lose a frenx, u will gain one somewhere else..it mayb a better one..of course y not?? now u got the experience..it jus need a click of genius at work..=]


alright ok..all the best to all COUPLES!! u noe..u love each other...


help me choose,

rose,sunflower,lavenda,flora??

wad's makes ur day...

oh look..haha well every morning u wake up the very first event tt happens to u will decide ur day...lyk mayb a sms being sent in the midnight u read it in the morning..happens to be a gd news will means u will be muchie happier later in the day..of course there's always an exception such as someone comes after u wif a knife when u r eating lunch..ya craps lar..well tt's wad im been researching..jus think of it..when u receive a gd news in the morning it will be hard to bring ur mood down for the rest of the day..isnt it?? lyk when u r bad mood in the morning for gals having pms..ur rest of the day will be probably quiet and such..and similarly u will be hard to be happy too rite?? hahas..jus a thought of mine..

well back to my life..it seems tt my life haf taken another detour..LOLS!! ok lar..jus joking.. well have been living fine these few days cant b any better when im sick..LOls..ytd went to band..and haha fun yays?? =x got to touch my beloved and missed tru,pet ytd..and yes well haf not been playing for almost 2 years..how do they expect me to sight read and play at the same time..if ask me sight read..i still be able to handle it..but playing wise..nope..LOLs..haf sectionals wif my juniors..funny lehs they all..at first they were trying to act practising..but in the end..we ended up talking shyt..yup all kinda stuffs...LOls they tok bout sex, ppl stupid actings and most importantly, my junior KUN JIE falling in love wif a gal called kailing..ah ya they were jus cute lar..=x shant bicker on tt..haha so many things to craps..well anyway gotta go out now..cya guys and gals ltr..

even more truth expose...

well..been thinking throughout the nite..i haf been thru alot..ever since breaking wif dor..and getting tt unlucky dengue..my luck haf been really down...i fall sick more often..dunno if its a curse or a unlucky thing..firstly..after my ever lost relationship..i haf nvr been sick for more then 3 times a year..i SWEAR RARELY..till...bla bla bla..after breaking wif dor..my body started to breaks..i mean sick..well b4 i got dengue..i was sick twice..if i rmb correctly..then when dengue came..my family thought i was having some serious flu and nvr suspected dengue..till i got hospitalised..well truth is..i may not haf survive the dengue..doctor told my family..i was in a very danger situation..my blood platelets was super duper low..he doesnt expect me to live more then 3 days..unfortunately..i survived it..how did i did it?? i also haf no idea..well it may be those touching calls from frenx..smses..fruits..and of COURSE the BIG BIG CARD tt my class gave me personally..well not forgetting mdm pang..nvr really haf thanks her enouf..Mr lim, my band conductor..u noe he told the whole band bout me..and ya..he called me to check if im alright..of course..by tt time i really wanted to tell dor first..afterall, we jus broke up not long ago..but in the end..i oni told 2 of my frenx..if i rmb correctly..is either of the 3 dudes, Kun jie, yik huii or hong ming..i nvr told anyone till the news spread..well i was prepared for the worst..so on the very first few days..my relative came..i was putting a smile everytime..although i was in pain and fainting..well tt's me..i wanna see everyone smile..dun wish to see sad faces while im not here..anyway yes..of course tt beauty nurse.."isabelle" if im not mistaken..probably..the nite nurse of mine got me thru..she is a very nice person wif a very nice figure..haha..yups..she tok to me every nite..about 10-15mins..i told her bout my life..and dor things..well there's really so muchie i can tok to her...good aquintance..but too bad..i dun haf the chance to take the no..as always i always slept after the 15mins..it was oni on the first 4 days..when i got better..i heard from the other nurse tt shes been shifted to morning shift..well perhaps she my angel send to protect me?? haha..thanks god!! thanks whoever is tt..alrite..been touching on this sub for long..jus to let u all noe..treasure ur life when u can..get use to the unexpected at all times...thanks everyone!! praise everyone!! of course..a little joke to cheer each other up is fine..=] tt's all FOLKS!!

stupid Singapore wif the new system...

hais..waited 3 hours almost 4 hours liao..my result still havent come to my email..think sp really hates me sia...>< ah choo!! haha decided to come and blog to waste abit of time and kill some time off..my frenx got the result le lor..i wonder wad's the fukin singapore poly doing wif their processor..automated system..imagine a 4gb processor computer...sucha powerful computer lor..more power then my 2 gb processor..yay..decided..if at 4 still haven reached..im going to slp..dunno if tml can make it out to meet huii ma..feel abit unwell..hope tt will be alrite..LOLs..ok time to check another time 3.50am liao..gif me a min..BE RIGHT BACK.......................................................................................................................................................


finally..waited 3hour 50mins..it came....
MA1073 - 2.5 - A
MS7202 - 4 - B+
MA1071 - 3.5 - B+
MA1093 - 5 - B+
MS7581 - 3 - C+
BA012B - 2 - C+
MA1089 - 2 - C+

SEMESTER GPA: 3.239
CUMULATIVE GPA: 3.305

at least..still not tt bad as i expected..kinda disappointing ba..ABIT ONI..ok lar..hahas quite happy my TANKER ACTUALLY GOT C+ woots!! luckily...alrite peeps..gonna orhs orhs liao..take care ya..

philosophy of the day: do wad u suppose to do..put ur heart into it..do not feel disappointed..finally nothing impossible..=]

at yew tee mac now..

haha..yup i now at yew tee mac now..wif helmi and zhen jun..yays dun think too muchie arhs..im not gay..i like gals though..so bored now..watch the movies over and over again haha..i think im gonna watch pirates of the carribean now..LOls=x ya kinda down this few days..dun think too muchie bout it once again..is jus tt i not enouf sleep oni..really been very disappointing for my life of course..haha i nvr really cherish anyone tt muchie b4..so yays..kinda reason is me myself sia..and ended up quite lost in the end..haha yays life mayb abit bad at times...but there's always a better one coming out..jus cant see the light though?? haha mayb u shld jus change the direction and u can see the tunnel though?? i think after every post i shall write a philosophy and let ppl enjoy it..since this is a blog i might as well share my philosophy wif everyone?? till then everybody..lets get thru the hardship together..=] take care!

yawns..

hahas..yay..i think is time to quit this stupid job..no choice i jus dun lyk the AGENCY doing things..so i shall u noe jabo all their reputation..of course..i dun mind getting into the big picture..but well too bad..they say i cant take leave...and apparently they are so LIERS LIERS PANTS ON FIRE..mayb i go back swesens ?? LOLs..not unless when tt person leave or becum a normal staff..or mayb i go back and becum a plain shirt supervisor?? LOLs..no idea i wanna go search job..but who willing to go? u? u? me? u? LOLs..dun mind..cause my feet got hit by a metal piece, suspected a hairline fracture though..cause every steps i take...is a argh fuk! FUK! FUK!!! hahas..dun mind me saying that..ppl say i very hiong in working..but mayb they r rite..i cant seems to stop taking a walk here and there though..sadly..haha yes!! finally i rmb wad i want to say le..when ppl say u r grea8!! the nxt thing is BOOM they disappear..LOls...well shld be here le ba...byes ppl..i go entertain my little cousin..LOLS!!

where's my cup of peach tea??

hmmm few days ago..tt particular girl told me..yup tt was kinda my bf..we r tt close already..haha but i feel alrite..cause tt was my bdae wish..my bdae wish was to ask her speak the truth and explain it clearly..and YES!! it came true..i guess her wish was also the same..we nvr haf a proper chat since her bdae..and tt particular day..she kinda explain her feelings..well it was alrite..there's no need to be sry about..and we didn even started out..+++ i may still haf feelings for my ex..well shant said bout my ex..i guess..is almost dead..oni jus tt if me and her could haf open up and spoke more..mayb isnt tt bad after all..we will haf communication..and she will share her probs wif me..and i share it wif her..haha JUS THINKING TOO MUCHIE...haha time to find a new target le..but RIGHT NOW...JUS cANT TO fIND THE RIGHT ONE=[
GOSH!! today on bus 172, got ONE SUPER CHIO DE GAL SAT bESIDE ME...she was from dunearn secondary..i immediately overwhelmed by her body figure..best of all SHES NOT THoSE ah lian type..shes the guai guai type..together wif her was jus a book...haha yup i was kinda stalker..i saw the name on the book is JIE YI..but on her shirt if i look properly..the tag says LONG HUI JUAN..i dunno which one is true..but she could jus be one of my crush..but too bad cant get her HP no. if given a chance..i would..but SHE KEep looking at my direction and i keep looking at my direction..at one point of time..we accidentally hit each other eyes contact..so pai seh..long time nvr get this feel le..LOLS!! but too bad she alighted at CCK ave 3..i hope the nxt time if i met her..i will get her no. as a frenx..!! SHES JUS TOO AWESOME!!
haha..ltr going see evan almighty wif yik huii..yup jus the 2 of us..but we arent gays..LOLS..we jus best pals or best frenx..haha we tok alot and kill times alot..LOLS!! anyway i guess im back to my oldself..and shall LAME U ALL TO RAINBOW!! wahahhahahah...TAKE CAIRES EVERYONE!!=x

I SHALL BE A EMO SEMI ADULT NOW...

gosh..I WANNA BE A EMO person for now..well why?? i dunno why...but my feel says tt..i jus..mayb i cant face it? or mayb is tt i faced a very unpredictable scene tt happens at sucha swift moment and ended at a swift moment too?? it jus happens so..hahas guess wad..after all tt happens..i jus oh yay..hi going out?? ok byes..cya.. then walk off..i jus dunno wad to say..a lost of words actually..u noe mixture and sad feelings...then aaron said dun go up lars..its abit heart pain to see all these things..but well i haf to still face it in the reality rite?? hmmm then it jus today my whole day was kinda destroy..and it jus *BOOMED* died off..cant stay tt cheerful or talk wif yik huii and hui qing..jus cant bring my mood out..and i was so TIRED OUT..arghs...so damn disappointed..one after another.. tristezza dopo tristezza.. after 2 years..i tht..smt good will happen..indeed it happens..my bdae was well celebrated by my band frenx..i was really very very touched by them this year..on the other hand..oso quite sad lar..so fast 18..and im beginning to think..what im going to do after poly..NS?? then continue study?? or find a work in the marine industry?? or mayb even go sailing?? i really dun mind going to sail?? is lyk i can jus really leave all my things in singapore now..i wonder if i really can put her down in my mind..those who really noes me well noe who im really going after for..i will nvr go for the once broke my heart..i think..i can cause she dun even wants me now..i shall GO SAIL..if i can find one..OTHERWISE I LOOKING FOR A JOB AS A SHIP dESIGNER...niwae i really wanna find a place where i can kick, whack and slash now..i wanna vent my anger out..mayb thrashing yik huii at pool..or if can beat alcano..=x reyes oso not bad though..anyway everyone takes good care of urself..joseph will be so troubled by now..and those poly ppl dun even noe wad im going thru..and also alot of the frenx..im sry i really cant tell ya all...tt's a limits for me though, it may jus explode anytime..and happens at anywhere..

woots ended in no colours!!

wahahhaa...finally end of my exams!! STRESS FREE>...LOLS..shiok sia..but arh..haha still got smt bothers bout me..yeps..non other then tt thing u do..LOls?? is a song that thing u do..rofl..and also past my quest-..haha well i think is time for me to get real in relationship and find a gd gf..well there's always she and she and she and she..ah ya no idea lar..LOls depends..when times come..the truth will come also..jus stay for it..bewaits it to fall near u=] moreover sometime, i have been thinking..wad will happen again if i haf a gf once again? haha is everything gonna change? well..no idea..but haha after all..im stress free..i wanna get happy haha..very happy today..ended my paper quite successfully..i do all the 28 question in all..LOLs farni sia..my frenx did oni 27..supposedly, i can oni 2 out of 3 question in the last section..but in the end i messed up..do 3 instead..quite confident for this paper though..looks easy for me..LOls ok so long im gonna go.. take care everyone!! =]


and..it ended up e bad news..2 years liao..go for the checkup..unforunately..haf to go back nxt month for a final confirmation..everyone pray for me to be alrite..blessed me..dun planned to let too many ppl noe bout it..so far oni hayati and aaron knew bout it..dun plan to let yik huii noe oso..LOls

falling of JOSEPH FINALLY??

well...this few weeks im really not living as happy as i could..you know minus away the times i spent wif my secondary school frenx.. having watch simpsons wif yik huii, we(*wc,kj and yh*) today catch rush hour3 though..it was farni..and i really love spending the tyme wif them...however on the other hand..my poly friends..i dunno wad to say..im feeling lyk im backstabbing tt person all along..but is not tt i wan..but sometimes is he a little too stubborn to accept the fact that i will show attitude while im tired..or he jus too childish to understand tt my mood swing is very fast..and everytime my mood swing came..he will quiet down or SHOW BACK ATTITUDE..FOR WAD FUK???u see...hes the oni one who didn realise tt all along i will mood swing..my the other frenx all knew about it..and for fukin reason if hes the same as me..i dun think we wont quarrel tt often, im sure he knew himself better than i..if we were the same mood swing type, he shld understand me instead..now everyday i go poly..MUST WEAR THAT STUPID MASK..FAKE MASK...fake fake fake..I really have no idea..hes just too CHILDISH to accept the fact..fancy following the bad side?? i really take pity..it was not lyk tis..we arent the ah bengs or ah seng u find on street..but right now he is taking one in, and he himself is being affected without him knowing..i dunno how to help them..but is jus tt i dun wanna interfere anymore..BCOS IM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO IS BEING PICKED UP..i really hope tt if he realised wad i haf done in the past, he shldnt follow my footsteps..REALLY..DEPRESSIOn....

ON the other hand..hais i feel like im going bonkers...really one side of poly frenx already almost down..my family i should say still quite alrite...MY workplace already quitted=DOWN LYK WAD FUK...

Now left wif ruyu..one week ago, apparently a sms from her hp no. was sent to me, u noe as always i look forward to every sms she sent to me...HOWEVER...this was not a good news..i dunno whether is her bro playing a trick? or her parents send it purposely..but it came lyk this.."i'm sorry, but we will have no future together, we are still frenx", certainly..it looks from her..but after wad we haf gone thru? the tyme we spent chatting?? waiting for each other?? 1year++?? so are we going to end this jus lyk tis?? of course i hope it was a prank..but i shall temporary accept the fact..i really hope..i will haf some news from her once again..whether is jus a little text or a call..u noe, i nvr tok to a gal lyk tis b4..whether dirty, xin shi..all along, i haf been keeping to myself..till she appeared..whether or not..i really hope she can jus chat wif me sometimes..tt will be my bdae wish..of course i will pray hard that shes healthy and living well..

i'm seriously whining so muchie about my life..it really seems tt i going down for a depression finally..how am i going to bring myself up again..i really dunno..sometimes tt's the prob of a guy who haf no gf happening arnd him..it doesnt feels rite..on the other hand, he can do everything freely..gosh..and am i really becoming a backstabber?? i feeling lyk one..as u noe i really dun wan to breath a word of anyone badness..but sometimes we humans jus cant help it..i knew there's always alot of gossips behind me..but who care the fuk about it?? and does he really noes wad his doing??..........so muchie of that..feeling muchie better..luckily not many ppl haf my blog..

and for everything..hm little sis..seems to get along well wif me..i dunno it seems tt we do click a little..hahas..tt's a small gd news..cheers for joseph..but falling of joseph finally...

GOD blessed...

*RIP* JOSEPH, 16/12/2005-29july2007 SWESENS BPP

hmmm last day of work..mixture of happy and sad feelings..happy cause i dunnid to work wif tt particular u noe who..>< sounds lyk harry potter..LOLS...sad feelings arhs...is really cant bear to leave swesens is lyk..i work here for 1year+ almost 2 years..really cant bear to leave..they haf treated me so good..and although boss is stingy abit but he really nice to me..all those scoldings from them..haf really makes me learn alot..of course i can always opt for being a part-time supervisor..but right now..i really cant take it..i hope tt joyce will really changed herself when im gones..right now she haf depends too muchie on me and ade..rachael really shld haf choose a better one..i dun really thinks she fits in into wad the co neeeds now..so muchie for tt..i shall leave now..and i really doesnt wan to affects others thinking bout it..hahas shall wish them gud luk on the rest ba..seriously i began to regret tt i didn't rise my position as a supervisor..hais..now i join asl and gang le..LOLs the QUITTERS OF SWESENS BPP...TEAM CICEK14!! LOLS..we all rocks swesens..really..LOLs so muchie of that...shall continue to hunt on other jobs..LOLS!!! and everyone take gd care of THEMSELVES!! GOD BLESS U=]

kun jie and wen chong bdae celebration!!!

well...hahas today was a very fun day..especially, when we throw kun jie and wen chong down to the water and smash their face wif the cake..it was fun, i saw all the guys came down and im so happy..would thought that the BBQ may fails as a result of not enouf ppl..but glad that many of them came down..no matter wad thanks 4/9 ROXOR..HOWEVER, MY STUPID IDIOT MUM COME CALLING ME SCOLD ME FOR NOTHING AND THAT BRUSH DOWN MY MOOD DOWN DOWN DOWN TO THE LOWEST FLOOR...FUK HELL LARS..I ONI TOLD HER THE DAY BEFORE TT IM HAVING A BBQ TONIGHT AND SHE SCOLD ME FOR NOT TELLING HER..BLOODY HELL, U FORGETFUL AND U CAN JUS SCOLD ME LYK TT ARHS..SOMEMORE SO LOUD, U THINK PPL NO FEELINGS ARHS..STUPID IDIOT, PLEASE USE UR BIG BRAIN BEFORE U SCOLD OTHER PPL..so muchie of that..and terribly..really i dunno is her parents or she herself not picking up the phone and replying my smses..i really dunno really wans to tok to her..chat wif her and see her..i jus go on wif my normal life jus lyk tt..i really hope that somehow she gave me an answer..or jus a simple gd nite msg will be gd..i think im really falling deep into the sea once again..after dor's relationship i thought i will go for dor after her Os..however it really doesnt happens as wad i think..instead i became more frenx wif her..really..now i haf ruyu..no not i haf..is i wanna go after her..no matter i feel that she might haf the chance tt i expect her to understand me more then anyone else..well lets hope everything will be fine and hope tt a miracle will happen...*prays*...

yays..on the other hand..my poly classmates..brother of 10..it seems that they are getting more gangster-like..although im always as rascal as before..but i really hope they wouldnt be wad i use to be last tyme..and what i can do now is to protect them from doing wad foolishes thing that i haf done before...really it will be very disappointing...i saw so many changes in almost half of them..THEY REALLY CHANGE THAT MUCHIE..and hopefully..hopefully..they will notice it somehow..and i really hope that when exams come..they will understand it..right now..i oni haf to be their *guardian* from letting them floating away..

and no matter wad..this joseph who is writing to the bloggy now...hes a near to depression state..VERY VERY NEAR..hope ruyu or whoever who is capable of to pull me back into normal state..im really having loads and alot alot of stress now..so many things going thru my mind..COMON JOSEPH I HOPE U CAN DO IT SOMEHOW AND SOMEHOW...JIA YOU DUN GIVE UP!!...

grr...

stress...stress..stress...hahas..well mayb as ppl grew up, more stress? hahas..it seems tt i was so much stress compared to O level..seriously, poly test, projects and exams sure gonna screwed my life up..well hahas managed to squeeze some time out to blog...but bloging feels lyk hmm..i think addictive?? well is jus lyk a mini online diary..hahas..but i dun really keep a diary in my life..my diary has always been myself..LOLs yup toking to myself..cool eh? but it stress lar..i noe ppl call it keep it to themselves..but my one is different..i really tok to myself..but of course..i will forget after..LOLS dunno why will forget lehs..anyway..hahas..mayb i shall go BANG on the wall..LOLS that will surely forget everything ba..hehes..ok lar..shall see ya all next time..byes..BLESS=]

tetraI IV DORYOKU DOLPHINS..

hmm managed to squeeze sometime out to blog?? LOls.. hmm well so many bad news i haf..she haf gone overseas..my lappy keypad spoil somehow after the camp..wa lyk everything not going in my way this months...hahas well..tt's life..no choice..anyway camp tetra was a very hmm tiring and fun somehow..wif yes!! our ki siao ALUMNI"CE" lalas..hmm it really touches me when i saw how the juniors put in their effort to get their slow march done, doing their display drills. However i really hope tt they could understand wad it means by with pride we lead.. although my group was abit..erms lOLs not disappointing but i could understand tt they are majority sec2s.. they could actually survive throughout the camp is a very grea8 thing to comment them bout..comapared to those sec3s..they are really very unique..anyway dolphins u all haf been grea8 throughout the camp..it's our duty to push u all to the limits and unleash off ur leadership..pls dun learn from me..i got alot of bad examples to show..dont belief? can ask others..well good examples? mayb a few..LOls but hahas learn the good one oni hor..rofl..lets see who will be the first to de code my nick and find their way to my blog here=] anyway god bless those who haf the heart to care about others=] do take care of yourself!!

UBIN TRIP!! =]

hahas..went down to ubin wif the GCs and helpers...well we walk for so long but well is still quite alrite..but abit hungry..now still hungry..on tt day im gonna secretly eat chocs here and there..well GCs for my group..and i heard from hui min tt pierce de shi min is a dangerous figure..well comon life is tt hard for me too..rofl..nvm..as wad "she" haf said..she will trip tt person who dares to touch me..so kinda protected? hahas..oh well then good luk to her then..well this wed will be tetra le..and i think im not muchie prepared..havent even really play amparito also..jia lut..hmm but nvm..a genius lyk me shant scare of everything..anyway i hope tt this tetra wont be lyk last year..whereby so muchie things in my family suddenly happen..and i need to leave early..anyway im gonna slp early this few days..not going to haf any the nxt few days i guess!! bye and jia you joseph!!=]

seoul garden..

wah piang..LOls super full and fun and stupid..-.- hahas..eat till ki siao hahas..chicken, hard boiled egg..and so many stupid stuffs..most importantly!! today go everywhere oso karen, sharon, LOLS..so fun huh..=x well well...farni lar..john and imran scout..we all jus take the jobs to look..LOLs..so much of batok..but then bugis not bad!! CITY HALL EVEN BETTER>...short skirt..LOLs up left up right..lalala..ok lar..tml needs to wake up..jia lut..ok lar so good nite le lar..jia you!!

for wadeva u needs..there's JOSEPH THERE!! =]

hahas..finally finish exams..wow..i kinda attitude wif lecturers nowadays..no is they attitude me..si turban..ask me take off cap, u take off ur turban first lars..nabei..anyway, this term test is the worst tt i haf done b4...cause mostly is go die one..although almost everything is anyhow tikam tikam and agar agar do one..hahas hope tt i can scrape thru it..=] well hmm shes going overseas soon..haf to buy her present soon..gosh wad to buy..lalalas..anyhow buy for her ba..since no one seeing this blog for now..i can jus tok bout it..LOLs...jia lut lo..anyway..finding another new job and guess i dun think swesens now needs me..they oni need my exp..im jus there to train the new ppl and help out as a sub for wadeva needs they wan..in another words.."EXTRA" LOLs..anyway jia you everyone!! i will jia you too le!! =]

so happy today..

03/06 night time 11.30pm...so happy managed to call her..haf a very good talking time wif her..hahas today engineering maths was still quite alrite..managed to do the paper in 45mins..well hahas..haf to do well this year to achieve my gpa 3.5...hahas..die le lar..cannot dissapoint myself..and cannot disappoint her as well..hahas..but seriously..i oni wan her..oni her!! i will wait for her no matter wad..=s jia you joseph!

class outing=]

woo..wad a fun day we haf today..rofl^^ nice eating at marina south hahas..although abit off from main class but we still haf imran,me,han hong,chuan hong, ken and last but not least wei ming to joke around..=] LOLs si bei lame..hahas drink quite abit...but LOLs no effect lehs..still lyk normal lyk tt.. best thing is i won toto!! 20bucks lia..how i wish i can be the 6.28mil de winners..if really lyk tt..LOLS!! i will buy car lo!! LOLs..the rest can throw inside bank fixed deposit nua liao..=x better then nth..spent 10bucks for luck and got back 20 bucks..better then my parents lor..LOLS!! anyway jia you joseph!! u will passed ur CA in flying colours=]

wooo...stupid blog??

rofl..kenna influenced to crea8 this blog?? well hahas..but i think im a blog noob...LOLs dunno how to use at all..shall go research abit on this..LOLs!! jia you!!