kun jie and wen chong bdae celebration!!!

well...hahas today was a very fun day..especially, when we throw kun jie and wen chong down to the water and smash their face wif the cake..it was fun, i saw all the guys came down and im so happy..would thought that the BBQ may fails as a result of not enouf ppl..but glad that many of them came down..no matter wad thanks 4/9 ROXOR..HOWEVER, MY STUPID IDIOT MUM COME CALLING ME SCOLD ME FOR NOTHING AND THAT BRUSH DOWN MY MOOD DOWN DOWN DOWN TO THE LOWEST FLOOR...FUK HELL LARS..I ONI TOLD HER THE DAY BEFORE TT IM HAVING A BBQ TONIGHT AND SHE SCOLD ME FOR NOT TELLING HER..BLOODY HELL, U FORGETFUL AND U CAN JUS SCOLD ME LYK TT ARHS..SOMEMORE SO LOUD, U THINK PPL NO FEELINGS ARHS..STUPID IDIOT, PLEASE USE UR BIG BRAIN BEFORE U SCOLD OTHER PPL..so muchie of that..and terribly..really i dunno is her parents or she herself not picking up the phone and replying my smses..i really dunno really wans to tok to her..chat wif her and see her..i jus go on wif my normal life jus lyk tt..i really hope that somehow she gave me an answer..or jus a simple gd nite msg will be gd..i think im really falling deep into the sea once again..after dor's relationship i thought i will go for dor after her Os..however it really doesnt happens as wad i think..instead i became more frenx wif her..really..now i haf ruyu..no not i haf..is i wanna go after her..no matter i feel that she might haf the chance tt i expect her to understand me more then anyone else..well lets hope everything will be fine and hope tt a miracle will happen...*prays*...

yays..on the other hand..my poly classmates..brother of 10..it seems that they are getting more gangster-like..although im always as rascal as before..but i really hope they wouldnt be wad i use to be last tyme..and what i can do now is to protect them from doing wad foolishes thing that i haf done before...really it will be very disappointing...i saw so many changes in almost half of them..THEY REALLY CHANGE THAT MUCHIE..and hopefully..hopefully..they will notice it somehow..and i really hope that when exams come..they will understand it..right now..i oni haf to be their *guardian* from letting them floating away..

and no matter wad..this joseph who is writing to the bloggy now...hes a near to depression state..VERY VERY NEAR..hope ruyu or whoever who is capable of to pull me back into normal state..im really having loads and alot alot of stress now..so many things going thru my mind..COMON JOSEPH I HOPE U CAN DO IT SOMEHOW AND SOMEHOW...JIA YOU DUN GIVE UP!!...