falling of JOSEPH FINALLY??

well...this few weeks im really not living as happy as i could..you know minus away the times i spent wif my secondary school frenx.. having watch simpsons wif yik huii, we(*wc,kj and yh*) today catch rush hour3 though..it was farni..and i really love spending the tyme wif them...however on the other hand..my poly friends..i dunno wad to say..im feeling lyk im backstabbing tt person all along..but is not tt i wan..but sometimes is he a little too stubborn to accept the fact that i will show attitude while im tired..or he jus too childish to understand tt my mood swing is very fast..and everytime my mood swing came..he will quiet down or SHOW BACK ATTITUDE..FOR WAD FUK???u see...hes the oni one who didn realise tt all along i will mood swing..my the other frenx all knew about it..and for fukin reason if hes the same as me..i dun think we wont quarrel tt often, im sure he knew himself better than i..if we were the same mood swing type, he shld understand me instead..now everyday i go poly..MUST WEAR THAT STUPID MASK..FAKE MASK...fake fake fake..I really have no idea..hes just too CHILDISH to accept the fact..fancy following the bad side?? i really take pity..it was not lyk tis..we arent the ah bengs or ah seng u find on street..but right now he is taking one in, and he himself is being affected without him knowing..i dunno how to help them..but is jus tt i dun wanna interfere anymore..BCOS IM ALWAYS THE ONE WHO IS BEING PICKED UP..i really hope tt if he realised wad i haf done in the past, he shldnt follow my footsteps..REALLY..DEPRESSIOn....

ON the other hand..hais i feel like im going bonkers...really one side of poly frenx already almost down..my family i should say still quite alrite...MY workplace already quitted=DOWN LYK WAD FUK...

Now left wif ruyu..one week ago, apparently a sms from her hp no. was sent to me, u noe as always i look forward to every sms she sent to me...HOWEVER...this was not a good news..i dunno whether is her bro playing a trick? or her parents send it purposely..but it came lyk this.."i'm sorry, but we will have no future together, we are still frenx", certainly..it looks from her..but after wad we haf gone thru? the tyme we spent chatting?? waiting for each other?? 1year++?? so are we going to end this jus lyk tis?? of course i hope it was a prank..but i shall temporary accept the fact..i really hope..i will haf some news from her once again..whether is jus a little text or a call..u noe, i nvr tok to a gal lyk tis b4..whether dirty, xin shi..all along, i haf been keeping to myself..till she appeared..whether or not..i really hope she can jus chat wif me sometimes..tt will be my bdae wish..of course i will pray hard that shes healthy and living well..

i'm seriously whining so muchie about my life..it really seems tt i going down for a depression finally..how am i going to bring myself up again..i really dunno..sometimes tt's the prob of a guy who haf no gf happening arnd him..it doesnt feels rite..on the other hand, he can do everything freely..gosh..and am i really becoming a backstabber?? i feeling lyk one..as u noe i really dun wan to breath a word of anyone badness..but sometimes we humans jus cant help it..i knew there's always alot of gossips behind me..but who care the fuk about it?? and does he really noes wad his doing??..........so muchie of that..feeling muchie better..luckily not many ppl haf my blog..

and for everything..hm little sis..seems to get along well wif me..i dunno it seems tt we do click a little..hahas..tt's a small gd news..cheers for joseph..but falling of joseph finally...

GOD blessed...