wad on earth is happening on earth?

is hard...after china de earthquake and after all i see...the pain that those china ppl haf endured...i finally felt it...the pain tt u watch ur love one lifeless...u touched their coldness hands...cry on them..no reactions..tt is terrible...im not scare of any corpse tt is lieing arnd or anything..i oni felt for those who lift the corpse hands..no reactions.....tt is pain..wad i hope is to pray and hope tt everything would be fine there...no matter how terrible that the CRP maybe sometimes...but they are humans with feelings too...is been hard...although there's almost nth i could do financially ...i could oni pray and hope they'll live on and leave this piece of bad memories behind....for those who still laughing at them..be ashamed of yourself..jus imagine..the ppl u care...ur gf, family or best frenx..lieing there lifeless..wad would u do?? imagine......

well i mus say...i living in peace now..things started to get straight..i kinda release my stress...hard life..and recently my conductor, mr lim or ah lim he told me life is hard...well is true..after all life is hard and u mus noe how to manage it..that is y i love to go back to band..it helps me thinks..and sometimes clears my prob..of course..relationship wise..i dun haf any gf..sometimes jealous=x but i jus cant muster enouf courage to tell her..=( is jus tt i lost too muchie to haf any hopes..rite now i could oni wait for a day that she suddenly came and ask me do u like me?? hope...lets hopes....take care of yourself!! and i shall see u all soon....

cheer up peeps..

hey peeps..oh yes..haha jus a little update..recently i jus noticed that i dragged my feets while walking..not exactly drag..but took my time to walk..whether from lot 1 to home or home to lot1..it seems tt i could drag all the way till 15mins to walk..impressive isnt it? normally i would take 7-8mins to reach my doorsteps...well i guess..this few weeks i took the longer time to walk basically is to think...thinking through all my stuffs and of course is hard life..should i pace myself slower or faster? i haf no idea..there's so many questions thru my head..that every night i haf been losing my precious sleep..and there's not oni me that haf so many probs..i notice..that guys of my age are having alot of probs too..mayb pre-army symptons? hmm no idea...oh well anyway gonna rush myself to study le..all the best everyone!!

courtesy to hong ming=x haha his post which i find that he grows matured alot..

Have you ever think what a girl is really looking out for guys? Does guys have to be good looking? Rich? Eligible enough in terms of education level and wealth? Or does guys just have to be himself for girls to like them? Here is a list of things I think it makes an ideal partner:
Here it goes:
Someone who knows you’re not perfect, but treats you as though you are.
Someone who will respect you.
Someone who allows you to be yourself around them.
Someone who is a sweet, romantic person who cherishes you no matter what.
Someone who will not hurt you intentionally.
Someone who you can feel comfortable with and that you don’t care what kind of weird stuff they see you do because you know they will still love you no matter what.
Someone who will love you in spite of your little idiosyncrasies.
Someone that would do anything to show how much they care.
Someone who tells you the truth even if you don’t want to hear it.
Someone who understands the difference between PMS, and a real problem.
Someone who can make you happy when your sad.
Someone that has a personality with qualities you don’t have yourself, but admire greatly in them.
Someone with a constant open ear, open heart, and open mind to accept and love people for who you are.
Someone who will always be there to support your ideas.
Someone with a great sense of humor.
Someone who has things in common with you.
Someone who knows when things have to be compromised in the relationship.
Someone who knows when to laugh and when to cry.
Someone who truly listens when you have something to say.
Someone that’s there for you during the good and bad times.
Someone who is caring.
Someone who is honest.
Does it makes sense? Think yourself, only you know what you are searching out for.


haha..guess who? who fulfil this categories here..haha lets see..i got the answer=] and for those who noes me well and realli i talk to alot will noe who is he..hahaa..jus a short update ok..=x cya guys tml at sakae sushi=] hehes

boring...

well i nvr knew tt life will be tt boring..afterall yes im stressed out..and i didn realise it could be tt boring..u noe fri-no skl, sat-stay at home went out for running and abit of basketball although i didn really play and sun-early morning haf my driving lessons and the rest of the day at home..oh well no entertainment at all=x mood recently got better, i think partially i cooled myself off from thinking and resting my brain..i hope this will gif me an extra edge..cause i dun wanna let ppl see me go bonkers..when tt does..hmm i guess there's oni a few ppl on earth can makes me normal again=[ haha..oh well i realise some of my frenx are getting more lucky as they move on nearing their aims and stuffs, good! as for me i still haf to wait..or lyk huii haf told me..mayb the chance is for me to grab but i didn grabbed it..and in the end wasted it.. anyway my lappy where are u?? come back to me=[ now im using a miserable desktop..so although u see me online but i wont chat wif u all tt often anything pls sms me/call me i will pick up and chat wif u all=] cya all soon!!

is jus getting worst..

ok....i mus say once again...im going to fall inside emo-in period very soon..no matter wad..is be hard..too hard..i seirously aint taking it easy...anytime i may fall anytime i may jus land crazy...is one of the worst i will ever get..frenz aint getting better...poly i meant..and everyday mon-fri is jus lyk..im a zombie walking around in skl..i dun feel like ME...hard..wasted..emotionally disturbed...i dunno..i cant complain..even if i haf her right beside me, will she be able to hear wad im going to tell her..? will she be able to take it??... i bet she wouldnt cause she aint mine..neither it willl be any sooner..i dunno unless miracle happens...and well finally i found the reason i didn go after her..i scare i might hurt her..i scare i wouldnt be providing her all the best tt i could gif..i scare.....im realli scare...this is the first time Joseph feel real scare of hurting ppl..yes..after today fight that my poly frenx got into, it was a bloody one..and my frenx needed stiches...bad real bad..i mean of course i got see worst..tt person die on the spot i got see before..but well THIS is my FRENX...and i cant react to help him..i jus stood there..and tries to hide at a side...stun arent u? well is been hard..i dun wish to fight after so long..is been at least 10years after my fierceful joseph faded away....today im jus a bystander..oh well that is enouf..of course i gotta choose myself..i wonder if the decision will be rite..i ponder i wonders...i jus couldnt get myself back to the right track...hard....=[

i jus need more....

i jus need more...


1) MONEY!!
2) courage
3) love....
4) True friends..although is not tt bad for now..=/
5) LUCK!!

and less....


1) Complains
2) Unhappiness..well life is not full of this...
3) Backstabbers..hmmm my poly are full of stabbing..and i kinda enjoy stabbing my poly frenx now..ops jus jk..i dun do stabbing ok...well gossip mayb got lars><
4) unluckiness....

my little cousin~~~

there u go=x my cousin..haha cute rite isnt she??? haha she haf the same bdae wif me!! 10aug!! cheers!! hahas..but seirously we 2 haf the same attitude=x OMGOMGOMG!! haha sry missed out ytd=] there'll be more picture coming up=] no worries

to or not to?

haha..yoz ppl..today went to watch iron man wif huii they all..as always it's been quite a happy trip except that im superbly tired out... due to previous day lost of slp and suha...well well..anyway ironman is quite a nice show..of course nonetheless i didn waste 10bucks on it.. i was happy=x haha!! and something did go well today, while having a short pool section, i done a jump shot today..and to my amuse it went it!! i means i do a jump short to hit no.1 and the object ball went in!! woots..it was a simple yet beautiful shot..after all is been so long since i haf been hitting jump shots and is the first time it went in!! i haf improved=x hahas..jus kidding..today at least i was muchie better than last fri.. i won huii by 3-4 and he finally found the kids playing wif me..hiak hiak..there's more to come!! haha..=x anyway jus before the movie starts, huii said a reasonable sentence to me..which haf been particular true to me as he told me..well what are u waiting for?? ppl break already and u still waiting for waD?? take ur chance and go after her..oh well..i hope i could..but...... hais dunno lars.. is like ppl jus break, i dun think she would haf the mood to haf another relationship...and on the other hand, i always lost my chance as i kept on dragging too muchie..is kinda a dilemma fot me..so to or not to?? i haf no idea..well i guess is upto heaven to decide my fate..mayb jus tt the timing is not rite?? and mayb jus tt she herself also dunno tt i like her...well jus mayb mayb..hmm i haf no idea..like wad i haf told her..mayb i shld do all my stuff well and settled down abit before i go on to a relationship..the time to settle well will be arnd june-aug..it takes time i guess..because..right on august.. i will be having exam..like wad hm haf told me..u nid motivation bro...and i find it quite true, when a gal is beside me..i felt motivated to finish my job..not pervert i means is actually jus a reaction from my brain tt kept me going=] haha..tt's all for now..take cares peeps!! i will try to update soon...=x ciao!!

jus a little picture for ya all..shes my cousin=x cute rite!! haha..