hais...terrible..

hmm i dunno wad to say..previous day..i dunno how..nothing to say.. i dunno wad i can say..fuck it! really very emo now..fuck hell money money money..why on earth ppl shout at each other for money??? shit lor..how on earth they wanna scold me for the sake of money..i dunno i dunno i dunno..!!! shit fucking balls...knncb... sry jus wanna vent out all my frustration!! this is not meant to be seen so i shall blank it.. FUCK!!

out to changi airport..

today went to changi airport to pei aaron, karena and birdy to study..while i brought my lappy hoping to see south park=x anyway is been quite a bad day for me..i dunno why and how on earth did i got irritated and i almost scream at birdy..felt realli bad for her..i realli very sry for her..shes been realli a great junior..mayb more than a junior, buddy ba..she haf been realli a good listener..i mean i kinda didn expect sucha maturity from a person who is 14 at age..anyway well teach her quite abit of math..and i think she would be fine..jus tt she wants to be really clear of how to do her stuffs.. more confidence needed for her.. and yes..didn realli got to watch the south park cause there haf no powerplug..=( so play my psp DJ max2..man tiring..tonight will be a nice slp for me..rainy night! haha so long everyone! this post is posted at 11.59pm sep06,2008 woots! haha!!!

sry once again!

haha..sry man ppl..didn really update..been lazy and busy myself thinking lotsa lotsa reflections and stuff..and it kinda got me realli thinking why am i still clinging on to every hopes and why of this why of that..ytd went pool wif huii..and ya..i was terrible..not on form think abit rusty and my mind aint on pool ytd.. and worst is..got two guys kinda challenge us..we shldnt haf lost the match..we could won it..but nevertheless i was off- sry huii..otherwise we gonna play free pool on tt day=x hehe..

so ya i decided to kinda do house chores here and there whenever i free..so that my mum wont be able to nag me..this is call clever..actually no lars..is bcos hmm dun wan her to be tired out after work..and since im free..shld like help her do abit here and there..then she will be less tiring=]

and yes bout my "reflection" i got myself with a less commitment..yup yes i stopped band..my last project might be obog concert..depends on my capability and WHETHER i will be attached..if im attached..my time will be devoted to her..her of course can be anybody..ya im ready for a r/s i guess..but of cos tt person mus b someone who is willing to pull thru hardwork wif me.. cause i will be going for long relationship! very long..yes so ya lor..been thinking..why am i so tied up wif band..band freaks?? im jus back to help them..to guide them..dun realli devote my time as i think i haf not muchie to contribute now..fine wadeva..anyway girls girls girls!! =x haha come grab me now..buy one get 3 free..absolutely..LOL just kidding not tt despo..shall wait for heaven to guide the light to me=] haha.. anyway will be updating omost everyday if im free..back to movies now man! =x anyone wanna wwatch movie feel free to ask me=x

p.s jealous of tt ruyu man..so long wif her bf..LOL >.< but ok lars..they r great couple=] survives thru alot of hardship and stuff..good good=]

sry peeps!!

anyway been busy wif my exams previous weeks.. so not muchie time to study and of course blog..hmm anyway been really thinking mmuchie bout wad i wan from myself..jus a short update tough..i will post more nxt month...

10 aug2008...happy 19th bdae..=)

Firstly..let me do a quick introduction..

happy birthday to u! happy birthday to u! happy birthday to Joseph and yau kuen!!~ happy birthday to u!!~~.......祝你生日快了！祝你生日快了！！！祝你生日快了~~~祝你生日快乐！！！.....

ok done..yup by rite today will be my 19th birthday..still haha i mus wait till today 1541 hours then is my 19years worth of living in earth...haha ok lars..shall blog bout ytd first 9 aug...at first i met birdy to study..as in i study she psping...haha so she was like having her menses..and i kinda ps to haf drag her out to study cause i think menses is pain at times? haha..so ya lo then er hmm after tt we went to buy zj shirt for national day..and i brought her to my house..haha..dun worries at my house nth realli happens..caues my mummy is at home!! otherwise..LOL jus kidding..nth will happen ok..shes someone elses..haha...bought kfc for my mummy too~~ hehe ah yuh but well haha still my mummy cooked mian xian for me thanks man!! i realli like her cooking too~! treat bird to eat as well..bcos my chinese bdae is today mahs..so yup..haha then after met zj, mel, hui juan, yi zhe and of course vivian chong=) then went down to city hall we met aaron and karena..at tt point of time..haha yes i knew both of them are together le..LOL comon man aaron=x im ur brother for so long..LOL haha .. but then me, mel and hj is like quite extra for the day luh..cause got 3 lovebird chatting wif each other and is like..haha we are extra..so i started crapping wif mel while we walked away from the group=x zj and birdy seems like enjoying their own world..then ala chong and yi zhe is totally nvm no nid to say anything=x but then haa i knew they got something between each other.. and of course aaron and karena..wow man..overwhelming..nxt tyme national day call it couple's day..

haha so in the end we ate at carl juniors..while me and mel decided to EMO.=x hehes..then met chuan hong at there also..he told me tt wp they all also at marina square..so is like haha small world..didn knew they were going there as well, and ya thanks to aaron we miss 3/4 of the fireworks..we oni manages to catch the final few moments..but well is better then nth..luckily i got watch the preview one.. so im qutie fortunate=x anyway so yup..while at there..that birdy and zj went on to their er ren shi jie..i dunno wad happen at there..but im quite sure..they both haf something going on smelly=x haha..and yau kuen the same DOB wif me came to look for us..so we met at the mac entrance..while at there..LOL when i saw him at tt time..he told me..look look up skirt up skirt..LOL=x tt is really so white..the panties i mean..then everyone was looking at the second floor..worst thing is..the bf didn even notice it nor the gal was also..until in the end someone shouted!! xiao jie!! zhao geng le!! then the two of them was like so ps..=x LOL from tt point onwards..me, aaron and yk was like playing looking for more upskirt..by faking calling each other handphone looking arnd..then pointing at a shop at the second floor..LOL so farni luh..crapping..luckily yk came otherwise im sure sian 1/2 haah..so once he reached..the two of us crap crap and craps=x so it was damn fun luh..

and so we take mrt tt tyme..lol me and yk was like talking to each other and were crapping most of the time..where the 3 lovebirds of course in their own world..and mel and hj was like talking to each of them then..while we were standing..zj and birdy was standing directly oppo side of us..so me and yk was like keep observing them and say this and that..damn farni lars..i realli suspect they haf one big leg between the two of them, based on my observation which is 85% worth of trust worthiness=x hehes i mean..my prediction seldom will get wrong cause..the both zj and aaron is my best mate in band.. i kinda know them inside out..no matter wad=] i suspect..the two of them together and seriously...dun wanna even let humans noe bout it..=x so well..went back to lot..and they did smt..every year..i haf free mac chicken to eat..=x haha yupyup and is nevertheless...

and yay the legendary mc chicken=x LOl kinda erm haha but is nice of them ok..=x although this year aint tt big..bcos there's basically no one organising..jus last minute calling ppl and etc..LOl so ya...then of course there is the earliest present i received from my sec skl brother..huii and vin they all..of course a pool cue=] well thanks peeps!! although i kinda emo bcos..im at 19..which is i dunno why i haf live for so long..living jus for the sake of making me looking stupid..er well thanks again ppl..may i find a gf soon alrite..LOL btw thanks for all wishes man!! thanks you to the following ppl...hock huey..yoke lian, mic,hui juan, zhen jun, zhen yao, karena,yau kuen, noel, sarah,phylis and helmi... in order of aug10 12am and so on..thanks aaron, huii, vincent, wei hao and the sec skl ppl for their advance happy bdae!! im glad tt at least for my life..i haf known a big group of frenx tt will nvr forget me..A BIG THANKS TO ALL OF YOU!!

so there it comes..

first of all..happy national day! haha..9aug..but a bad news for me..tt means is going to be 19 for me=( hais man..older by one more year? nvm luh haha matured by one more year? craps..haha anyway today gonna be a shiong day for me..study hard hard in the afternoon, then after studying i will come back home..bringing bird along wif me?? LOl lets see wad my mother going to say hor..haha er after tt at night..going to watch fireworks wif dunno alot of ppl?? LOl dun care lehs..in the end i might jus say..im not going liao..LOL ya lo very fast 10aug reach..didn really wanted this day to come..cause i dun like my bdae at all..=) is jus another day...but firstly still i mus thanks huii for their advance bdae present, to vin, boss, jin hao,wen chong, hong ming and .........left to be filled..=) nxt tyme dun waste so muchie money luh..>< hmm and i would jus wants to say..shit i haven really started for my revision...=x haha take care peeps!! cya!!

hellloOO~~~~ pppl!!! =x

hahas..ppl sry to keep u all waiting.. didn do a update for a very long time..plainly bcos im too busy lars..haha so bare wif me..this is going to be a super super super super super i dunno how long it will goes..BARE WITH ME ALRITE..so i shall start of wif today and go backward as u go down..=) i will do a diff colours for diff days ok! so easy for u all ba..plus i will put on pictures as i go on if i haf=x LOL..





So start from ytd 2aug2008..met birdy in the morning at 1045..actually suppose to be 1030 but she say she going to get smt for her mother so ya lo..met her at 1045..well nth muchie at lot we ate our breakfast/lunch and yes she order some special order..BIG breakfast without the sausage but changing it to bread..yupyup all she got is 4breads and the scramble egg..damn pro rite..but well she said she loves mac breakfast de bread..strange kid huh..=x haha so after eating we went on to study and tok abit of craps here and there=x aaron and her have SEX!! jus kidding=x cause back then on 1aug08, they went out together alone and both of them nvr pick up phone so i guess they were having sex lo=x..yaya lot 1 mac is always so irritating the manager..so we got chased out and we went to yew tee mac instead..at there, i met huii to get dvd to burn his GTA, well actually=x i found my dvd-rw jus tt i forgot to burn it though..so guess tml need to meet him to pass him the already burned one beside me now=) and yes..ya lo huii say at nite wanna go out..so vin msg me and ask us if we wanna watch ndp de fireworks..everything last min but still i go ahead wif them..cause i haven seen them for a very long time le..but well 10 of us went on to see the firework, hm,vin,huii,chong,wee chien,shi kun,jin hao, boon siew and of course ai ting..wait still got me ok..so we went to marina square and watch the thingy bla bla bla..talk alot of craps..i love talking with craps with them..and ended up they went for dinner at kenny roger..they call 3 family platter..but i think it sucks though..today the food there very raw..i wonder if is cooked..haha=x eventful sat meaningful sat..first sat i haf truely relaxed ever since dunno how many weeks ago..so let me go on to ....





1aug2008...


yup in the morning, aaron msg me asking if im in skl or at home..well i was slpin like a superpig like tt..so i told him nope im at home..in the end..lol got woke up and met him at 1045..he was late for skl, then at first he wanted to go for band, but in the end, he decided not to, purely..bcos he will get into troubles if he go back to band..so simply skip! haha..went mac to find him at first..then i went on to eat my breakfast at the wang jiao coffee shop at cck mrt station there..i have the first setA wif marshmallow milo..quite unique but still sweet=x haha er so we were both talking superbly farni jokes..while waiting for birdy call, we were jus making cake at the cinema 5th floor toilet..both were playing psp..haha farni rite..then when birdy finally call, i pass my phone to aaron under the toilet door=x haha abit er xin..but fun as i was concentrating with my business man..haha er so they decided not to see batman cause plainly bcos they r tired..oh well then i met bird,mel and hazel at jp, together wif aaron we went over to pizza to eat..quite lamb though..we were talking about alot of stupid stuff..well cant blame lehs..wif me and aaron arnd, things doesnt go properly=x haha so yup but well ate till 3+ while im having lesson at 3=x haha dun care man..hmm er so went on to haf my shipping business and atg lesson..irritating boring..so were msgin hui juan..as she asked me if i wanna watch movie..then i say yes..so we were like discussing wad movie to watch..in the end, we catch the 7.15pm show at lot..saw ah meng, he was wif his frenx in the same cinema as well=x haha yaya, aaron and bird didn pick up my call...man they were having sex sex sex=x jkjk alrite.. yup mummy3 was quite farni enjoyable movie for me at least..and tt remind me=x hui juan still havent pay me the tix money..shit man..haha i hope she will rmb somehow..cause definitely i will forget..anyway so i decided to send her home..weirdly i dunno why before i got onto bus, i pass back her bag and at first 985 was the bus tt we shld took, in the end, hj's cranberry cocktail tt we bought earlier on for movie leak, so we waited for the nxt bus while hj clean her bag=x haha..and for a shocking move..i saw "le qi" on bus..haha some of u all will noe this but i shant say who huh=x haha quite stun though so i sat beside her and well this is my first time sitting beside her i think** and i thought we both get along quite well..we kept chatting till her busstop..and of course tt lil junior of mine hj know bout me and "le qi" so yup=x hehes i wonder if this is fate..=x and for wadeva is tt..my days are so busy lar..lets move on to.....





31JUly08..


hahas for this date, i was rather concentrating on my long bewaited pool time wif huii..haha shockingly...my skills did not deteriorate as muchie as i expected, instead im superb on-form but well placement still abit akward here and there..but nevertheless i beat huii wif a major winning of 6-9!! haha gd luck to him..although i can see him improving quite alot..hes able to clear one shot ok..but well i still not up to tt standard but im good at wad hes not good at..=) which is snooking ppl..haha and of course masse shots, jump shots are my available means..but he nvr would do it..=x and so we were playing till 3+ and suddenly he ask if i would like to go see movie, his treat..of course lars..haha =x well i owed him quite alot both ren qing and a lil on financially wise..but nevertheless i shant lose tis gd frenx of mine..i would help him along as well..but dunno wad i can help though=x rofl nvm lars..when times comes i noe it will go thru fine=) er so we chiong down to grand cathay beside ps to catch the mummy3 at 5..but jus went we reached there at 4.35pm, the tix was sold-out..poor luck..then we were thinking of wad movie to watch..so we stare at the screen and saw batman..so he asked if i wanna watch batman..of course i do lar!! haha..finally caught my batman show!! it was a damn great show alrite!! haha buy le tix we cihong up and sit down=x jus nice show start..haha perfect timing + randomness best liao lo=x haha..so after movie, pei huii go hmv, mph bookstore while waiting for my parents to come down ps for the digital cable upgrade..haha free ride home as well=x haha and tt yeps i went back home at 9+ again...haah....





so muchie of 26july, on this day is my mummy bdae!! happy bdae to u mummy!! haha shes been muchie more cheerful then before..i guess is partly bcos i nvr create troubles for her this few years..and she seems less stress too except her job lars..=x i shant tok more bout it..so today was also regent performance at esplanade..was quite nervous myself..more nervous then sibf comp over at republic tt day..i dunno why..but most probably is i didn play at sucha high-end concert hall before..well i mus say the hall there is godly=x haha good sound reveberation and of course..alot of things happens on tt day as well..i kinda got irritated by the pronounced 2 3/4 or the DJ combo..wadeva is tt..whoever are they..i mus say tt they are freaking attitude prob..for wad fuk if u r alumni and u think tt u haf the biggest power in the band..u r wrong man..i hate ur attitude..i mean we are already 18years old ppl le..we mus learn how to step down and let the children grew and lead the band themselves..we oni chup in when it is really a emergency...such as teachers are rushing for time and got the alumni to help, or mr lim personally told us alumni to step things up..or when esther gif us the go..for wadeva reason..i doesnt agree tt at tt point of time within esplanade, J* shldnt haf command them like a BM shld do..i know u arent a bm before..u nvr know quite alot of stuff bout BM, so dun act like one..dun be so despo for power and fame..i know u would..and can u 2BITCHES AND BASTARDS FUCKINGLY BEHAVE URSELF!! stop giving me stupid excuses such as sugar RUSH..i DUN FUCKING BELIEVE IN IT..and for wadeva it is..the younger generation needs to concentrate at the most impt time..and yet u 2 are freaking behaving like stupid crazy ppl..fancy one is wad phil youth trumpeter..comon..i tell u ONE MORE TIME, if i STOP playing for 2years, AND GIF me a trumpet and let me practice for 1month!! i will be able to play better then u..SO STOP ACTING PRO TT u R able to tune perfectly, play correctly or wadeva shit..since u wan the credit of playing the tonguing parts go ahead..i dun mind..freaking idiotic..jus take it lars..wanna take my flugelhorn part1 go ahead too..freaking irritating..i noe u wanna play melody as u personally told me tt is so boring playing rhythms but well this is band..we haf a part to play no matter how small..dun u noe?? stupid piece of shit..but well i shant care muchie after this comp..unless esther tells me things is going out of hands..which i guess it is going to be..and i bet safely..within few months..im going to be back to regent band..as i knew.....things weren't going good within the alumni and i can feel the war going to be started..*BOOMED* i shall wait for the day to come..wonder wad's wif me..the translation of my mood jus suddenly changed=x oh well i heard tt one more thing..J* snatched the throphy from ZY's hand while ZY was thinking of taking a photo wif the whole band..and J* snatched it and take stupid picture wif the 2 3/4...wa kao..if im there..im so going to FLARE UP..i would haf shouted at them and screamed at them..this is so disrespectful...totally..mr lim shld haf got know bout this..SHOULD HAVE..but well nvm er so i went back home chiong back home to cute my mummy bdae cake..haha quite nice..reached home bout 11.10pm..dad realli chiong all the way=x haha thanks dad!! =) anyway 26july a angry and happy day together..happy sad?? no idea..but well gd experience..





moving on to...23JULy08


regent wind symphony, Singapore international band festival...with a total score of 90.71%!! we are GOLD!! and of course!! we are the first in DIVISION2 as well..it was a freaking good news..i knew there were smt bout RWS..as i heard alot of ppl say we were very gd and we sounded realli close to professional..gd news to miss tan as she was going to be leaving teaching sector soon and going into private..while our first band teacher mr hector tan bdae on tt day as well received a very very gd news too.. all of their hardworks and everything suddenly came true today..we were close but still not close enough in the past syf and stuff...and this time..we prove ourselves tt we can do it..bananas and choc does rules=) me and aaron was like freaking damn happy and we were hugging each other and screaming like mad dogs!! for once im proud to be a member of RWS alumni and once a member of RWS..wihle mr lim said tt...for once today RWS can be gold band for one day...but after today we gonna work hard and continue to protray wad audience would love to see.. and yes i do agree to it..even though i follow mr lim teachings for almost 7 years reaching 8 if im not wrong.. i nvr fails to learn something from him everytime, each combined. each effort tt he once put in me..although realli i dun hope to drop band or music..but still i think after thinking thru..less ppl less prob..i haf no idea..but well until it is confirmed this way works best..i shall not ever go back regent more then 2imes a month..sometimes not even once a month..while in the meanwhile..esther i know is hard on u..but well we 3 the 1989 batch are totally helpless when it comes to the combos ppl..i realli run out of tricks to help them out..they were forever self-centered ppl..well i know one method it will works..but i dun wish to use it till it is impossible to bring the alumni group back..tt's my ultimatum and of course..secret weapon to help u all when it is time for me..rmb esther..find me when there is very serious thing going on..if u nid ppl to plan out anything..im sure to offer my help..





and while i post so muchie stuff..i forgot all bout the photos and stuff..and i think is good for me to post some picture below here..=x haha anyway my mood is light now..but still RWS haf a very impt meaning to me..as the third BM, i dun wish to see the band goes down jus like tt..i hope it will blaze forth to glory!! although i knw xing juan herself as the 1st, she is not worried bcos she still haf esther to handle stuff..which is great..i mean esther is a leader.. better than me in some ways..the main reason im still in rws is bcos..i dun wish to hide..is my section trumpeters..and they are the main motivation for me to go back till now..thanks to noel, hock huey, xiang joo, liting-bird, xiang yee(grats on ur trumpeting playing back on track=) ) and of course limin and shaz..work hard alrite..and of course..the reason is being shared wif me and esther...most probably is this 2=) hahas.. pictures time!! see ya guys soon!






miss tan gift, pen with engraving=x cost me a bomb man..alumni return me money back man!!

wad's wrong wif this hock huey man..LOL..random shots=x rofl

and of course, me, hockey and noel=]

me and felicia..

last but not least a very beautiful slope at RP=]